Back to meetings

The good news is I went back to Weight Watchers meetings last night. The leader is a riot. I think I will like going to her meetings. The bad news is I gained five pounds since my last weight in which I think was two weeks ago. I deserve every one of the five pounds. I ate like crap for 2 weeks & did not exercise much at all.

Yesterday went well I stuck to my points and hit the treadmill for 45 minutes. I was so glad I got up yesterday morning & did the treadmill because let me tell you I would not have done it last night. Tonight I have my personal training class we are doing upper body again. We did upper body on Tuesday & my shoulders and back still hurt, but it is a good hurt. Tomorrow is my husbands birthday so I am taking the day off, it is really nice to only work 3 days this week. I think we are going to hit the casino , he wants to eat lunch there so I have to watch what I order. I think chicken will be a good choice.

4:45am

4:45am that is the time I dragged my big ol but out of bed this morning to do 45 minutes on the treadmill. I said I would do it & I did. I ended up get up 15 minutes later then I wanted to thanks to that dang snooze button. In the past I might have just said I can not get in the time I want so I will skip, but not today I did it. I think it will get easier to get up in time.

So I am going back to Weight Watchers meetings tonight after work. They have the at work program here at work but you can not use the monthly pass & I like to buy the monthly pass because it includes e-tools which I love so I have to go to meetings after work. I would prefer going on Saturday mornings but with the personal training class I can not get there. I also went back to my personal training class yesterday after a weeks vacation. (I was only on vacation from exercise). It felt great to get back.

Commitment

I am making a commitment for 2 months. My plan is to commitment fully to exercising at least 5 days a week & eating right for 2 months. I think if I can stick to it for 2 months It will become like second nature and I will want to continue after the 2 months. That is my plan & I am sticking to it. I will start going back to Weight Watchers meetings this week. I will not go over my points (the daily & extra weekly). I will get an exercise plan in place and I will stick to it. Today has gone well & so far no cravings. I am really tired today but that will not keep me away from the gym. I wish I could go in the morning but with having to be at work at 7am and the Personal training class being 6-7 there is no way I can make it. I can do the treadmill in the mornings on Wednesday & Friday. I think I might try that is week.

Goals this week:

1) Stay within my allotted points
2) Go to the gym 3 days
3) Do the treadmill 2 days

Something's got to give

As you can probably guess by my disappearance for about a week I am not doing so well sticking to the program. Something has got to give. I just can not get in the groove. It is like I have given up. I can not stop eating & I have no desire to exercise. I have been so busy this week getting ready for our Memorial Day picnic, I spent all day ( from 8am till 7pm) staining the deck & I have so much more to do.

I am making a commitment to get back on track on Tuesday. I am going to re join the Weight Watchers meetings & get back in the exercise grove. I just do not stay on track with out going to the meetings. I have a hard enough time when I go I don’t need any more excuses. I am so disappointed in my self but still can not seem to get with it.

Collarbone

I am happy to say I can see my collarbones. Now most people would not get excited to see collarbones, however mine have been in hiding for so long I am just so happy to get a glimpse. I am also starting to feel my hip bones, only when laying on my side but hay at least I can feel them. It shows a sign of improvement.

I have been back on the exercise and eating right wagon since Wednesday. I plan on sticking with it. No excuses I just have to do it.

In a Funk

I am in a funk. I was so motivated last Wednesday then it hit the fan. I have been horrible with my eating since Wednesday night. I did manage to go to the gym on Saturday for the 2 hour training class but I did not have the ump. Sunday I woke up & felt the urge to do the treadmill. I jogged for a little over 3 miles & did a total of 4 miles however my eating has been so off. Today at work we are having a pot luck & I am sure I will not do good again today. I can just feel it. I am hoping the season finale of Biggest Loser will motivate me to get back on track & stay on track. I have the personal training class tonight & I will go & try to get with the program. I don't know why I eat so bad, it does not make me feel any better. It makes me feel worse. I usually get a stomach ach, feel tired & don't want to do anything. So why do I do it? I truly believe it is all mental. I just need to get my mind in the game.

Wednesday weigh in

I was up .6 at weigh in today. I am not stressing over it because my eating was not on point this week. I don't think I tracked at all. I did not go over board but I did not track. Back to tracking today.


I love to watch the Biggest Loser, It is so inspiring to me. Last night the challenge was to run a marathon. I knew Tara, Helen & Mike would do it but I really did not think Ron would be able to do it. Well he sure surprised me he finished it. I was thinking of trying a half marathon in October and kept going back & forth , should I shouldn’t I? The other day I was like who am I kidding I can not even run 3 miles & I am thinking of doing a half marathon so I had decide to give it up. That is until last night. Ron inspired me, if he can do a marathon with all his health problems & aches I can do a half. I am going to do it! Even if I can not run the whole thing I will finish.

Is the weekend over already??

Why do the weekends fly by so fast and the week days go by so slow. Let me rephrase that, the work hours during the week day go by so slow. It seems like it was just Friday & here it is Monday already.

Friday night I went to a spinning class, it rocked I don't think I have ever sweated so much in my life and I burnt over 600 calories. Friday night my husband and I went to Chili's for dinner,we were so hungry we ordered chips & salsa. That was a big mistake, I probably at 600 calories in the chips alone. Saturday in my personal training class remembering the chips is what kept me pushing along. Every time I wanted to quit I remembered the chips I needed to work off. It really kept me going, not that I would recommend eating so many chips. We ran for 1.25 miles on Saturday after an hour of doing weights, I thought I would die the last .25 miles but I pushed through. Then we did another 45 minutes of circuit training. It felt great. Yesterday I did not get any exercise in, I spent the day cleaning. I usually take Mondays as my day of rest but I will count yesterday as my day of rest instead & hit the treadmill after work.

Friday after work I decide to go shopping, I thought I have worked hard & lost some weight, I will go buy some new clothes. Well I could not find anything & the things I did find looked horrible. I really need to stay focused so I can buy some new spring/summer clothes that will look good. Or better yet fit into some of the stuff I already have that is a bit to small. I have about 4 pairs of pants that are a bit to snug that I would love to fit into by June 1st. That is my new mini goal. I have been doing great with the exercise I just need to do great with the food.

Weigh in

This is not the official Weight Watchers weigh in due to I missed my meeting yesterday to fill my jury duty obligation. I did not get picked for the jury (I think it would have been interesting to serve on a jury) but I did get out earlier then I would have had I gone to work. Seeing I got out early & it was such a beautiful day out I took Ben (the most amazing dog in the world ) for a 50 minute walk. Every time we walked by the car he would look at the car & stop as if to say can we go home now. Anyway back to the topic at hand. Now this is not official as I was not able to weigh in on the Watchers scale but I weighed in this morning on our Biggest Loser work scale it read 196.6!! That is a 5.8 lose since last Wednesday. Now it could be because last week was that time of the month or that I had a lot of salt & now it is gone but I don't care I am at 196.6 yoo whoo!!! I am going to be extra good this week so I am not disappointed next week when I weigh in on the official scale.

Pictures

Here are the progress pictures I promised. Let me know what you think.



























Here are some pictures of me now in my wedding dress from 5 years ago

Looking forward

I am looking forward and no more looking back. I am not going to dwell on my past failures, I am looking forward to great accomplishments. Often times I do not stick to my points & stop tracking or I will eat bad for a day & say why exercise I already ruined the day. Well no more, If I eat something that puts me over my points I will not allow it to get to me. I will not use it as an excuse to eat bad for the rest of the day or week. I will get right back on track. Looking forward will help me visualize my goals and were I want to be. I did not make the best food choices on Saturday night & Sunday night but I got right back on track yesterday. Most weekends I do bad then blow it until Wednesday, this is why I have not lost as much as I would have liked to by now. I am in it for the long haul.

What a weekend

This weekend was very busy. I was outside all weekend and I have the sun burn to prove it. I had Friday off from work so I could work on the landscaping at our house. Friday I was able to landscape the right side of the house, I think it came out really well. I will post pictures tonight or tomorrow. (our home computer is not working so I have to use my husbands laptop when he gets home from work). When we first moved in we had bushes in front of the house but they were all over grown & the looked like crap so we tore them out, Fast forward 4 years & I finally said we really need to do something out front it looks like crap. We were debating hiring someone to landscape it but I decided to give it a shot. I put down the weed paper stuff, mulch & planted a 2 dwarf pines, 2 rhododendrons & a rose bush. I also put in some solar lights, a bird bath & my mini flag. It looks really good. We also started the left side, we had to put in a boarder with bricks, hardest part was getting those dang bricks in a straight line. After what felt like 5 hours we got the boarder all set. I put down the weed paper, mulch planted and few more bushes. I ran out of mulch so I will have to finish it up tonight. It was so hot this weekend I must have earned a lot of AP (activity points) with all the sweating & gardening I did.


Exercise this weekend was good. I did not end up doing any on Friday because I was so sore after all the gardening. Saturday I went to the Personal training class ( I was actually debating on skipping it). We did an hour and a 1/2 of going through different stations then after we were exhausted we went outside & ran a mile. The first to laps I thought I would die but then I felt better & made all 4 lapse, I was the last one to finish but I finished. Sunday we did the March of Dimes walk which was 3.5 miles. I walked most of it but I did run some of it.


Food this weekend was not the best. I went out to eat a few times & did not make the best choices. I think the food is my biggest struggle I need to get a hold of.

One down the rest of my life to go

One successful day down. I made it through the day yesterday staying on program. I ate healthy, did not go over my points & I exercised for 50 minutes. I walked/jogged on the treadmill. I jogged for 30 minutes & walked the rest for a total of 4 miles. I was thinking I have to take this journey one day at a time, but I really think I have to take it one minute at a time. I can start out the day so confident that I am in it to win it then the next minute I am binging & sitting on the couch. I really need to stay focused & think before I eat. That is just what I am going to do, think before I eat & think really hard before I don't exercise. I will ask my self why am I not exercising today? Is it a good reason or am I just being lazy? I am sure 99% of the time it will be because I am being lazy and that will not be a good enough excuse. I will also think before I eat. Am I eating because I am hungry or is it for another reason? I will also post some progress pictures this weekend, I know I keep saying it but I really will.

PS thank you all so much for the nice comments yesterday!

What went up WILL come down

So as expected I had another bad weigh in. Up 2.4 pounds in 2 weeks. However I will get it down next week & I will stay under 200 once I get there. It seems that I get under 200 & then I sabotage myself, I can not seem to stay there

Such a GREAT weekend

This weekend the weather was just beautiful. The weatherman had rain scheduled for Saturday afternoon thru Sunday but it did not rain at all. It was sunny & warm, the perfect weekend weather wise. Friday we went for a 3 mile walk, I then went to the personal training class & then decided to stay for the spinning class. After class I had such a headache & I felt sick to my stomach, I think I over did it. But it felt great! I was going to skip the 2 hour personal training class on Saturday seeing I did 2 hours on Friday but I decided to go for the first hour, I ended up staying the whole 2 hours. I was proud of myself for doing the whole 2 hours. After class I did yard work for 3 hours. I was so sore Saturday night. Yesterday we had a Christening to go to, I said to my husband I am only going to eat salad & fruit don't let me eat anything else. I stuck to it. The only fruit they had was chocolate covered strawberries so I did not have any fruit but I did have salad.

Ready for a good weekend

I am so ready for the weekend. It is going to be in the 70's today, we have not hit the 70's in 6 months. I am so excited to get outside in the fresh warm air. Today after work ( I get out at 11am on Friday's) I am meeting some friends at the trail for a walk then we are having a picnic. The choice was between Mexican food or a picnic. We decide the picnic would be a much healthier choice. We are each going to make something to bring, I made a nice salad. Tomorrow after the gym I will do some much needed yard work. The only dinning out I will do this weekend will be on Sunday. We are going to a Christening were there will be a brunch afterwards. I will scan the food choices first then make a healthy selection. If the weather is nice on Sunday I would like to go for a bike ride. I have not been biking in almost a year probably. I bought a new bike last year & did not get on it as much as I should have. I don't know who invented the 40 hour work week but that does not give enough time to do all the activities I would like to do.

Weigh in

We did not have our official Weight Watchers meeting today because the leader that comes to my work is on vacation. I was thinking of not even bothering to weigh in seeing I would be weighing on a different scale but I decided to do it. According to the scale I used I gained .4 this week which is a lot better then I thought I did. I have decided to keep a calendar at work to cross off all the days that I stay within my points. I also have a calendar at home on my fridge where I write my exercise & activity points. I think seeing the visual will help. I have also put a picture of my self when I was at 250 by my computer as motivation. I just need to do it & not get off track.

I am doing the walk for March of Dimes in 11 days, it is a really great cause. If you would like to sponser me just click on the link above. Thanks for all your support.

Candy Cookies oh my!!

Why can I not get on track & stay there? I get on track for a few days, in some cases a few weeks then boom I go way off. Sometimes I can resist the hardest temptations & other times I make temptations for myself. I have been off track since Friday night. I have eaten everything in sight. I have not worked out since Saturday. I will be going to the gym tonight but I feel like such a failure. I wish I could just get back on track & stay on track. I think I will make some sort of calendar to count down the days I stay on track. Maybe if I have a visual I will be less likely to go off the wagon. Today is a new day & at least I am not waiting till weigh in day to get back on track ( that is what I would have done in the past). They are getting us pizza today for lunch at work (my favorite) but I don't even want it. I have a stomach ach from all the candy/cookies I have been eating. You would think I would not even want them seeing how they make me feel. I guess it is like a bad relationship, it makes you feel bad but you continue to go back for more.

A beautiful day

Today is such a beautiful day & I am stuck at work. At least I have a nice window to look out & see the clear blue sky. It is suppose to be about 66 degrees out today & I won't have any time to enjoy it. I might be able to sneak in a quick walk tonight after the gym if I get home at a decent time, but with my luck it will already be getting cold by then. I would have gone walking at lunch but I forgot my sneakers & I am wearing a cute new pair of shoes that are wrecking havoc on my toes. Why do cute shoes always hurt & the ugly ones feel great?

Yesterday I finally got back on the treadmill for 45 minutes. I jogged for 35 of the 45 minutes. Today I am going to the personal training class for a good butt kicking. Tomorrow I am off from work if it is nice out were are going to go for a hike if not I will either do the treadmill or go to a spinning class. The spinning class is at 6:45 am & I would like to sleep in but if I am up I will go. I will try to take some progress pictures this weekend.

Not so bad

Weigh in today was not as bad as I thought it would be. I would have thought with all the bad eating I did Saturday thru Monday I would have gained weight but somehow I managed to lose .4. I will take it & be happy. Yesterday I felt ill almost all day. I finally felt better at about 2pm. I ended up eating grapes, a slim fast, cereal & bagel yesterday. I feel so much better today mentally & physically. Tonight I will be hitting the treadmill for a much needed workout.