Thursday, April 30, 2009

Weigh in

This is not the official Weight Watchers weigh in due to I missed my meeting yesterday to fill my jury duty obligation. I did not get picked for the jury (I think it would have been interesting to serve on a jury) but I did get out earlier then I would have had I gone to work. Seeing I got out early & it was such a beautiful day out I took Ben (the most amazing dog in the world ) for a 50 minute walk. Every time we walked by the car he would look at the car & stop as if to say can we go home now. Anyway back to the topic at hand. Now this is not official as I was not able to weigh in on the Watchers scale but I weighed in this morning on our Biggest Loser work scale it read 196.6!! That is a 5.8 lose since last Wednesday. Now it could be because last week was that time of the month or that I had a lot of salt & now it is gone but I don't care I am at 196.6 yoo whoo!!! I am going to be extra good this week so I am not disappointed next week when I weigh in on the official scale.

Tuesday, April 28, 2009


Here are the progress pictures I promised. Let me know what you think.

Here are some pictures of me now in my wedding dress from 5 years ago

Looking forward

I am looking forward and no more looking back. I am not going to dwell on my past failures, I am looking forward to great accomplishments. Often times I do not stick to my points & stop tracking or I will eat bad for a day & say why exercise I already ruined the day. Well no more, If I eat something that puts me over my points I will not allow it to get to me. I will not use it as an excuse to eat bad for the rest of the day or week. I will get right back on track. Looking forward will help me visualize my goals and were I want to be. I did not make the best food choices on Saturday night & Sunday night but I got right back on track yesterday. Most weekends I do bad then blow it until Wednesday, this is why I have not lost as much as I would have liked to by now. I am in it for the long haul.

Monday, April 27, 2009

What a weekend

This weekend was very busy. I was outside all weekend and I have the sun burn to prove it. I had Friday off from work so I could work on the landscaping at our house. Friday I was able to landscape the right side of the house, I think it came out really well. I will post pictures tonight or tomorrow. (our home computer is not working so I have to use my husbands laptop when he gets home from work). When we first moved in we had bushes in front of the house but they were all over grown & the looked like crap so we tore them out, Fast forward 4 years & I finally said we really need to do something out front it looks like crap. We were debating hiring someone to landscape it but I decided to give it a shot. I put down the weed paper stuff, mulch & planted a 2 dwarf pines, 2 rhododendrons & a rose bush. I also put in some solar lights, a bird bath & my mini flag. It looks really good. We also started the left side, we had to put in a boarder with bricks, hardest part was getting those dang bricks in a straight line. After what felt like 5 hours we got the boarder all set. I put down the weed paper, mulch planted and few more bushes. I ran out of mulch so I will have to finish it up tonight. It was so hot this weekend I must have earned a lot of AP (activity points) with all the sweating & gardening I did.

Exercise this weekend was good. I did not end up doing any on Friday because I was so sore after all the gardening. Saturday I went to the Personal training class ( I was actually debating on skipping it). We did an hour and a 1/2 of going through different stations then after we were exhausted we went outside & ran a mile. The first to laps I thought I would die but then I felt better & made all 4 lapse, I was the last one to finish but I finished. Sunday we did the March of Dimes walk which was 3.5 miles. I walked most of it but I did run some of it.

Food this weekend was not the best. I went out to eat a few times & did not make the best choices. I think the food is my biggest struggle I need to get a hold of.

Thursday, April 23, 2009

One down the rest of my life to go

One successful day down. I made it through the day yesterday staying on program. I ate healthy, did not go over my points & I exercised for 50 minutes. I walked/jogged on the treadmill. I jogged for 30 minutes & walked the rest for a total of 4 miles. I was thinking I have to take this journey one day at a time, but I really think I have to take it one minute at a time. I can start out the day so confident that I am in it to win it then the next minute I am binging & sitting on the couch. I really need to stay focused & think before I eat. That is just what I am going to do, think before I eat & think really hard before I don't exercise. I will ask my self why am I not exercising today? Is it a good reason or am I just being lazy? I am sure 99% of the time it will be because I am being lazy and that will not be a good enough excuse. I will also think before I eat. Am I eating because I am hungry or is it for another reason? I will also post some progress pictures this weekend, I know I keep saying it but I really will.

PS thank you all so much for the nice comments yesterday!

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

What went up WILL come down

So as expected I had another bad weigh in. Up 2.4 pounds in 2 weeks. However I will get it down next week & I will stay under 200 once I get there. It seems that I get under 200 & then I sabotage myself, I can not seem to stay there

Monday, April 20, 2009

Such a GREAT weekend

This weekend the weather was just beautiful. The weatherman had rain scheduled for Saturday afternoon thru Sunday but it did not rain at all. It was sunny & warm, the perfect weekend weather wise. Friday we went for a 3 mile walk, I then went to the personal training class & then decided to stay for the spinning class. After class I had such a headache & I felt sick to my stomach, I think I over did it. But it felt great! I was going to skip the 2 hour personal training class on Saturday seeing I did 2 hours on Friday but I decided to go for the first hour, I ended up staying the whole 2 hours. I was proud of myself for doing the whole 2 hours. After class I did yard work for 3 hours. I was so sore Saturday night. Yesterday we had a Christening to go to, I said to my husband I am only going to eat salad & fruit don't let me eat anything else. I stuck to it. The only fruit they had was chocolate covered strawberries so I did not have any fruit but I did have salad.

Friday, April 17, 2009

Ready for a good weekend

I am so ready for the weekend. It is going to be in the 70's today, we have not hit the 70's in 6 months. I am so excited to get outside in the fresh warm air. Today after work ( I get out at 11am on Friday's) I am meeting some friends at the trail for a walk then we are having a picnic. The choice was between Mexican food or a picnic. We decide the picnic would be a much healthier choice. We are each going to make something to bring, I made a nice salad. Tomorrow after the gym I will do some much needed yard work. The only dinning out I will do this weekend will be on Sunday. We are going to a Christening were there will be a brunch afterwards. I will scan the food choices first then make a healthy selection. If the weather is nice on Sunday I would like to go for a bike ride. I have not been biking in almost a year probably. I bought a new bike last year & did not get on it as much as I should have. I don't know who invented the 40 hour work week but that does not give enough time to do all the activities I would like to do.

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

Weigh in

We did not have our official Weight Watchers meeting today because the leader that comes to my work is on vacation. I was thinking of not even bothering to weigh in seeing I would be weighing on a different scale but I decided to do it. According to the scale I used I gained .4 this week which is a lot better then I thought I did. I have decided to keep a calendar at work to cross off all the days that I stay within my points. I also have a calendar at home on my fridge where I write my exercise & activity points. I think seeing the visual will help. I have also put a picture of my self when I was at 250 by my computer as motivation. I just need to do it & not get off track.

I am doing the walk for March of Dimes in 11 days, it is a really great cause. If you would like to sponser me just click on the link above. Thanks for all your support.

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

Candy Cookies oh my!!

Why can I not get on track & stay there? I get on track for a few days, in some cases a few weeks then boom I go way off. Sometimes I can resist the hardest temptations & other times I make temptations for myself. I have been off track since Friday night. I have eaten everything in sight. I have not worked out since Saturday. I will be going to the gym tonight but I feel like such a failure. I wish I could just get back on track & stay on track. I think I will make some sort of calendar to count down the days I stay on track. Maybe if I have a visual I will be less likely to go off the wagon. Today is a new day & at least I am not waiting till weigh in day to get back on track ( that is what I would have done in the past). They are getting us pizza today for lunch at work (my favorite) but I don't even want it. I have a stomach ach from all the candy/cookies I have been eating. You would think I would not even want them seeing how they make me feel. I guess it is like a bad relationship, it makes you feel bad but you continue to go back for more.

Thursday, April 9, 2009

A beautiful day

Today is such a beautiful day & I am stuck at work. At least I have a nice window to look out & see the clear blue sky. It is suppose to be about 66 degrees out today & I won't have any time to enjoy it. I might be able to sneak in a quick walk tonight after the gym if I get home at a decent time, but with my luck it will already be getting cold by then. I would have gone walking at lunch but I forgot my sneakers & I am wearing a cute new pair of shoes that are wrecking havoc on my toes. Why do cute shoes always hurt & the ugly ones feel great?

Yesterday I finally got back on the treadmill for 45 minutes. I jogged for 35 of the 45 minutes. Today I am going to the personal training class for a good butt kicking. Tomorrow I am off from work if it is nice out were are going to go for a hike if not I will either do the treadmill or go to a spinning class. The spinning class is at 6:45 am & I would like to sleep in but if I am up I will go. I will try to take some progress pictures this weekend.

Wednesday, April 8, 2009

Not so bad

Weigh in today was not as bad as I thought it would be. I would have thought with all the bad eating I did Saturday thru Monday I would have gained weight but somehow I managed to lose .4. I will take it & be happy. Yesterday I felt ill almost all day. I finally felt better at about 2pm. I ended up eating grapes, a slim fast, cereal & bagel yesterday. I feel so much better today mentally & physically. Tonight I will be hitting the treadmill for a much needed workout.

Tuesday, April 7, 2009

What did I do????

I have such a stomach ache, I am so bloated my fingers feel like they are going to pop & I know why. I did not do the treadmill yesterday I went home & pigged out. Now I am paying for it. I feel like crap and it is all my own fault. The food I pigged out on was not even that good, so why did I continue? The good thing was my husband ended up throwing out the rest of the Lindt so I did not eat any of that but I made up for it with peanut butter chips mixed with peanuts & some chocolate chips. They went in the garbage this morning. My weigh in tomorrow will not be good, I went on the scale yesterday before my episode & I had gained over a pound so with this I am sure it will be more. Today I am going to drink 1 cup of coffee then water all day. I am going to try to clean out my system with fruit, vegetables & protein shakes. I don't even feel like eating at this point. Here is to a better day.

Monday, April 6, 2009


I failed at my goal not to eat out for a month. Not only did I fail but I did it with a bang. Yesterday started off fine I was on track trying to make up for some of the bad eating I did on Saturday night. My husband, Ben (the dog) and our friends Mike & Pablo went for a hike. I thought it was a way to hang out & get some exercise, (that was the only smart decision I made). So we went for a nice hour long hike then Someone said lets go out for pizza on the way home. Now I should have said no but I did not. You know I love pizza & my guard was down so I went. Not only did I have 5 pieces of a small pizza but I also had a roll & 4 pieces of garlic bread. I could not just stop at that I also went home & had about 6 or 8 Lindt chocolates. (soooo Yummy). I hope my husband remembered to bring them to work today so I don't eat anymore. I have been back on track today with my eating & I am going to try to squeeze in at least 20 min on the treadmill tonight. I am going to try to do another month with out going out to eat starting today.

Saturday, April 4, 2009

New ring size

For the past year I have not really been wearing my wedding rings because they are just to big. I did get a ring guard about 5 months ago but that was not comfortable. So I finally went & got my rings sized. They went from a 8 to a 6 1/2. The only bad thing is when the re sized my wedding ring they had to take away some of the engraving. The engraving use to say BLB & CMV 11/01/03 now it just says BLB.

Today the personal training class was canceled due to they were doing a fund raiser for Parkinson's disease. They had different classes on the hour from 9-2. I got to they gym for 11 & took a spinning class. It felt so good to go back to spinning. I really should make it a part of my weekly exercise plan. I think I might wright up a weekly exercise schedule. Anyway back to the gym. After the spinning class I was a bit worn out but I thought I can keep going. If this was the personal training class I would be here for 2 hours. So I took a Hip Hop class. I am way to old for that. I can not do half those moves. I did try & I did keep up but I felt like a goober. After hip hop I did the elliptical for 10 minutes & did abs. I had a great workout today burning a little over 1000 calories.

This evening some friends came over to watch the Uconn game, they lost but it was a good time. I did not do so well with my eating. Actually I did horrible. I had the mentality that I burnt 1000 calories & I usually do better on the scale when I have one bad meal so I went for it. Now I feel of bad. I should have controlled my self, I fell as though all the work I did at the gym today was a waste. I probably ate the 1000 calories in about 5 minutes. Tomorrow is a new day & will be a better day. Actually I did not wait till tomorrow I stopped the bad eating about an hour ago.

Thursday, April 2, 2009

A better day

I feel so much better today. I know I should be happy that I lost yesterday and I am, I just felt let down. I have decided I can not go into a weigh in with expectations, every time I do I get let down. I am just going to stick to my healthy eating & exercising & go with the flow. Even if the scale is not nice I know I am bettering my life & feeling so much better.

I went to input my weight into the weight tracker on Weight Watchers yesterday & when I put my weight in 200.2 it popped up saying I lost 2.4, I was like what I lost .4. So I look at the book & sure enough last week I was at 202.6 & this week she wrote 200.2 which is 2.4 lost. Not sure if she subtracted wrong or wrote down the wrong weight this week but I would like to think it is the weight. I weighted in for the Biggest Loser At work last night & the scale said 199.2 so I am thinking she subtracted wrong. We will defiantly find out next week.

When I got home from work last night I was so tired. I so did not feel like going on the treadmill. So what did I do? I sat my but on the couch had a snack & watched Law & Order SVU (taped from Tuesday night)., After the show I did get my butt in gear & got on the treadmill for 45 minutes. I ran 25 of the 45 minutes & it felt great. I don't know why but for me thinking about exercising & getting ready is so much harder then doing the exercising itself. I always am so glad I did the exercising & I have to think of that when I am tired & not wanting to exercise. I did not get to take any pictures last night but I will try to this weekend.

Wednesday, April 1, 2009

I could just cry

I feel like crying, I don't understand why I am not losing more weight. I weighted in today & lost .4 not even half a pound. I thought working out with a trainer & not going out to eat would help me lose weight faster not slower. I think I lost weight faster when I was going out to eat & just doing cardio. I am just so upset. But I will not let this get me down. I think I will try to do a bit more cardio (I have kind of slacked a bit on that) & I am going to eat all my exercise points. So if say on Monday I earn 4 exercise points I will eat them on Monday & so on. I am going to see how that works for me. I am also go to throw in a morning snack. I have kind of stopped having a morning snack unless I am really hungry.

I wonder if because I am doing more weight training I am retaining water & that is why the scale is not being friendly. I will try to take some progress pictures tonight & post them later this week. That way you can tell me if you are seeing any difference. I was going to post new pictures every month but seeing it has taken me 2 months to lose 10 pounds I have not . I think instead of every month posting pictures I will every 10 pounds.