I wish you all a Happy, Healthy, Safe New Years Eve. I have continued with my unhealthy eating & not exercising. Tomorrow is a new day & a new healthy lifestyle for me. I will not let anything deter me. I know I will have struggles & temptations, but I will overcome them. The first temptation I will have will be on New Years day. We have a tradition, some friends sleep over then on New Years day we hang out all day playing games, watching TV & of course pigging out on the leftovers from New Years Eve. This year I will partake in all except the pigging out. The second temptation will be this weekend. I am going to VT with a few friends for the weekend. They have a fully stocked bar & always have yummy snacks. But I will stick to it & I will even get some exercise in as they have great hiking near the cabin (as long as it is not too snowy). I hop to go tubing also which will be great exercise climbing the hill.
Out in left field that is how I feel. I have done nothing but eat crap for about a week and a half. Instead of losing weight for the New Year I have put on. How much you ask, well I have no idea because I am afraid to weigh myself. This week does not look much better. I have parties to go to & throw, no time to get my but to the gym because I have to work not only my 9 hour days but I have to make up an hour for New Years because we only get 8 hours holiday pay. I have been so tired & have no energy & I am sure it has to do with the junk I have been eating. On the bright side I have not been totally sedentary. My wonderful husband got me a Wii for Christmas & a Wii Fit. The Wii fit has not come yet, he had to order it & it should be arriving any day now. I have been using the Wii everyday & boy am I sore. I must be using parts I don't use when I exercise. I am so excited to use the Wii fit I wish it was here already. I might not be writing much this week because It will not be good I am sure, however starting on Friday I will commit to a new healthy lifestyle.
Happy Holidays to all my followers & fellow bloggers. I hope you have the a great holiday & a very happy New Year. I have not been doing so well this week with my eating & exercising, I do plan on getting right back on track on Friday, That is until New Years Eve. We are having a party & I think it will be hard to stay on program so I will give myself the day off, but then my new life will begin. Every year I start fresh on January 2nd because usually on the New Years Eve we go to a party or have one & we stay over or people stay at our house then on the 1st we hang out all day watching movies, playing games & eating left over's. This year I will not partake in the eating part. I know it will be hard but that is what I will have to deal with the rest of my life. Starting in 2009 I am going to eat much healthier ( I guess I better start liking vegetables). No more binging & being lazy. That is my promise to myself & all of you.
I had a plan & I actually stuck to it. On Saturday night we had a Christmas party to go to. I had a plan to go & just eat vegetables ( I brought a Veg tray) & to have a max of 3 beers. There was so much food at the party chicken tenders, Mexican dip, cheese crackers, brownies, Cake, Beer & wine. I did not give in to my temptations however. I had 2 Bud Lights & Vegetables with dip (fat free dip). I ate some popcorn & a pear about 1/2 hour before the party so I would not be starving & boy did that help. To tell you the truth I was not even tempted by the food. So I am proud of myself for sticking to my plan.
Now yesterday is another story all together. I had no parties ( well one but it was canceled due to the snow) & nothing that should have made me go wild, but something in my mind went wacky. I had a big breakfast of eggs, English muffin & hash browns. Then the cookies were calling my name, I kept eating cookies all day long. I then proceeded to make pizza for dinner. I did not go over on the pizza, I had my usual 2 pieces but of course after dinner I had more cookies. Well now the cookies are gone, I brought the left over's into work & they are about 5 cubical away so I am not going to have any today.
Not sure how much exercise I will get in this week. With all the snow this weekend I did not get to finish my shopping so I will have to do it after work which cuts into my workout time. Plus I have to work on Christmas Eve until 4:30 then I will have to go to church & to the in-laws. We shall see how the week goes.
40 that is the magic # today. That is how long I jogged on the treadmill this morning. It was not jog 1- min walk 5 Min either it was a full 4o minutes in a row. That is the best I have ever done. Running like that makes me proud. Seeing even 6 months ago I could not run for 6 minutes.
Now for the bad news, I did not do so well yesterday with my eating. Who is a food pusher?? Well I guess I am to my self. The day started off well. I went to the gym did 50 minutes on the elliptical then did some abs. The bad part happened when I got home. We had a big snow storm yesterday. It started around noon & snowed all day & night.
So what better to do on a snowy day then Make cookies. Big mistake on my part. I ate about 10 cookies yesterday. It didn't stop there either. I said to myself well if I messed up I might as well not count any points today, so I didn't. By about 9 last night I got my head straight & realized I messed up, I fessed up & I will now move on. So today is a better day. I have exercised & I am not eating any of the dang cookies. Tonight we are going to a Christmas party which will be another challenge. I plan on eating before had & bringing a veg tray & I am only going to eat healthy & have 2-3 Bud Lights. That is my plan & I am sticking to it.
Yesterday was another on program day, I stayed in my points & exercised. We had our breakfast meeting for work yesterday. I was not sure what I was going to get that would still leave me with enough points for lunch & dinner. I went with an egg white & onion omelet & Canadian bacon. I gave the hash browns to my boss. I ate a little bit more then half of the omelets. People were picking on my ordering but I said I don't care what you guys have to say I have been doing well & I am sticking to it.
My plan was to go to the gym after work but that plan did not work out. I had t run to Target & get some ice melt because we were getting snow today, I could not do that & go to the gym because I had to come home & let Ben out. I could have gone after that but I always feel guily leaving Ben after I have been gone all day. But don't you fret even though I did not get to the gym I did still exercise. I did a stepaerobics video. I have had this video for about 15 years & love it. The video actually features Cher of all people. Cher is not the instructorKelly Roberts is but Cher is in it working your stuff.
I am on a roll & I don't mean a fat roll. I am on the exercise & eating right roll. Yesterday makes day 3 of exercising & not going over my daily points. I heard somewhere if you stick to something for 30 days it becomes a way of life, I hope it is true.
I received The F-Factor diet book in the mail the other day & have started to read it. I love it already & I am only a few pages in. I think it will help supplement doing Weight Watchers. The new Momentum plan on Weight Watchers wants you to eat more fiber anyway so I think I will learn a lot from the book. I will let you know.
Exercise yesterday was an hour of PX90 arms & shoulders, I thought I would be very sore today but nothing yet. Maybe later in the day I will be, if not I will have to up the weight I use. Oh the Party on Friday night has been canceled due to a snow storm we are getting so one less party I have to worry about getting thru.
I set a new record, well at least against myself. I ran for 32 yes you read right 32 minutes in a row last night. The most I have ever run in a row before is 25 minutes. I really did not think I would make 5 minutes when I started. I felt tired & the treadmill felt odd ( I was at the gym & I usually run on the one at home) but after the 5 minutes I was like I can keep going & going I did. It felt great. I have a 5k in March that I have done for the past 2 years & my plan this year is to run the whole thing.
I also did great with my eating yesterday. I feel as thought I am defiantly back on track. I do have a few things coming up this week that have me a bit worried. I have a breakfast meeting tomorrow at a restaurant, my plan on that is to get an egg or egg whites on an English muffin. Then On Saturday night is my husbands work Christmas party & Saturday is a friends Christmas party. The booze will be flowing so I hope I can control my self. I plan on driving on Saturday night so I should not have to worry too much about that one.
Here is my food for yesterday
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
Morning 1/2 tbsp Fat-Free French Vanilla Liquid Creamer 0.5 1 coffee 2 cup w/skim/ff cream 1 1 steel cut oatmeal 3 egg white/v8 0 Subtotal 4.5 Midday 1 cup(s) mixed greens 0 2 oz cooked extra lean ground beef, 17% fat 3 roll - Quick-added food 1 1 slice(s) Reduced-Fat Pasteurized American Cheese Food 1 dressing - Quick-added food 0 Subtotal 5 Evening 3 1/4 oz chicken breast, cooked, skinless 3 frech fries - Quick-added food 3 1/4 cup(s) cooked frozen corn kernels 0.5 Subtotal 6.5 Anytime almonds - Quick-added food 2 1 medium apple(s) 1 cheese - Quick-added food 2 hot coco - Quick-added food 2 100 cal cookies - Quick-added food 2 Subtotal 9 Food POINTS values total used 25 Food POINTS values remaining 1 Activity treadmill/weights - Activity I created 4
I feel much better about my food choices & exercise so far this week. I know it has only been 2 days, however I feel like I want to exercise & am not dreading it. I am also not have constant food thoughts. Yesterday was a very successful day. I stayed with in my daily points & I went to the gym. I did 50 minutes on the elliptical. I read a few magazines on the elliptical which helped the time fly by. A couple weeks ago when I was on the elliptical I was so out of breath & felt like I just wanted to get off the dang thing, but not last night I had no problems at all. I am going to the gym tonight to do weights & the treadmill. Here is my food list for yesterday. Opps the Weight Watchers website is down right now so I can not post the food right now. I will try to later today.
I put myself down a lot about my eating & exercise. I eat bad & don't exercise & then feel guilty & put my self down which makes me feel worse. You would think it would motivate me to get off my ass but it doesn't. What has motivated me is a picture. I went out with some friends this weekend & we took a group photo. I did not like what I saw in the picture. Granted it was way better then what I saw 4 years ago but it was not where I want or should be by now. I am going to print that picture & carry it with me for motivation. I am sick of the yo yo lifestyle I have created for myself. It has always been my way to blame my bad eating & dieting on the situation around me instead of taking ownership of it. I will start my diet on Monday because we are going out to dinner on Friday. I will start on Monday because I have a party to go to & will not be able to stick to my healthy eating & not drinking. I will start Monday because I have already messed up this week. Well there will be no more I will start Monday's for me. I really have to focus & just do it. I have 2 parties coming up this weekend & I will not stray. I have to think of my self & what I want in the future not what I want at the moment. I have packed a healthy breakfast of steel cut oats, snacks of apple, cheddar cheese & a banana & a lunch of left over pasta (1 cup) with some olive oil & garlic & a salad. I am going to the gym after work & I will not stray today. I am taking it one day at a time. I know I might not be perfect everyday but I will not wait till a Monday if I do stray, I will get back on track right away.
I am embarrassed to say I have not stuck to my plan. I have such good intentions in the morning then by night it all goes out the window. Perfect example was yesterday, the day started out so well, I had steel cut oats for breakfast, lunch was a salad with chicken & popcorn, snack was grapes. Then I got home & we went out to dinner at Chili's. I should have gone to the gym like I had planned all day but no. So I went to chili's & one would think I would get something off the guiltless grill but no not me. We started off with chips & salsa ( the good part is we did not get the quaso like we usually do) then I had a mushroom cheddar burger & French fries, and yes I ate the whole dang thing. I think I am going to try to get my exercising on track then get my eating on track. My plan today is to get on the treadmill for at least 30 minutes. Tomorrow I will go to the gym & do the elliptical & weights. On another note I am so happy to see my followers list growing. I hope I am not boring you all with my writing. I am not the best writer but I am trying to get better. Thank you all for your support.
I feel like all I do is say how bad I am doing & today is no exception. I wish I could get control over my mind. I need to concentrate on not eating when I am not hungry. I was doing so well yesterday, that is until I got home. I even stopped at the grocery store on my way home to buy healthy food. I bought salad stuff & fruit. I had the intention of going home cutting it all up so I can bring a salad for lunch today. However I got home I was tired & did not feel like cutting it up. Instead I ate crackers then had Pizza for dinner. I had 3 pieces of pizza (with bacon on top). I feel like crap today, I am all bloated from the sodium & feel guilty for not sticking to my plan. I think I will try my best to stick to my healthy eating & exercise but if I go off I will not beat my self up. I am going to really try to change my life in this upcoming New Year. It is just so hard this time of year. I know this is a life style but I just can not get use to it. I did bring healthy food today to work so I should do good during the day. It is the night time that gets me. So today for Breakfast I have Steel cut Oats, I brought fruit for snacks & for lunch I have a lean Cuisine Flat Bread. 4 oz of Cucumber, popcorn & a piece of fruit. I must get on the treadmill today. (even though my foot is hurting). So hopefully tomorrow when I write it will all be good & no more bad.
Ok so as usual I did not have a good weekend food or exercise wise. I did not do all that bad on Saturday with the food but I defiantly went over my daily points, how much I am not sure as I did not track. I did get some movement in putting up the Christmas lights outside & walking around the Tree Farm looking for a tree but no real exercise.
On Sunday I did horrible with my eating I probably ate a weeks worth of points. Again I did not track so I don't know the real damage. We went to our friends for dinner (which was yummy) & I had a bunch of appetizers & dessert which was not the best for me to do.
I decided to have my weigh in day be Monday's, I think that may help me stay on track better on the weekend. ( well hoping it will). So I weighed in this morning & have gained like 3 pounds since the last time I weighed myself, I think that was the week before Thanksgiving. I have to get back on track & stay on track or I will end up gaining 10 pounds by New Year. I have a goal to lose 5 pounds by New Years. I just have to remember that when I am faced with poor food & alcohol. It is going to be hard with the up coming parties but I have to do it.
Sorry for not writing yesterday I had a really busy day. I had the day off from work. I got up about 6:15 am & got my but to the gym. I knew if I did not go first thing I would not end up going. So I did 45 minutes on the elliptical then did abs & some biceps & squats. I felt good after my work out & I was so glad I went because after that the day went down hill. Not so down hill I am off the slope but down enough. As I said I had the day off & my friend Julie & I went shopping just about all day, (so I guess I did actually get more exercise in). We went to lunch at Au Bon Pain & I got a turkey sandwich on multi grain & water so I only used 7 points on lunch which is not bad at all. The bad part of the day came at night. We had a Christmas party to go to & I was not going to have but 2 maybe 3 drinks. Ya right try like 7 or 8. I did not do all so bad on my eating (not like I use to eat) but I could have done so much better. I had salad, 1 roll, chicken (not so bad yet right) potatoes which I did not eat all of & I only had one bite of dessert. The bad part is I ate my husbands fried onion straws. I did dance so I guess I got even more exercise in, but all my exercise does not make up for the pig I made out of myself. Here is my food diary for yesterday.
On a good note I had a very filling healthy dinner on Thursday night. I make grilled chicken, sweet potato with 1 tbs of lite maple syrup & sugar peas. It was yummy I also went to the gym on Thursday & did the cybex for 40 minutes then some weights. Menu for Thursday
Thursday, December 04, 2008 Morning 1 small apple(s) 1 1 steel cut oatmeal 3 1 CUP COFFEE W/SKIM MILK 0 TEA W/ FF MILK 0 egg white/v8 0 Subtotal 4 Midday popcorn - Quick-added food 1 1 cup(s) water 0 1 package(s) Macaroni & Cheese 5 1/2 cup(s) pineapple 0.5 Subtotal 6.5 Evening 5 oz chicken breast, cooked, skinless 4.5 1 large cooked sweet potato 3 1 cup(s) fat-free skim milk 2 1 tbsp Lite Syrup 0.5 1/2 cup(s) Sugar snap peas 0.5 Subtotal 10.5 Anytime fiber one bar - Quick-added food 2 yugart - Quick-added food 1 100 cal snack - Quick-added food 2 egg white/v8 0 Subtotal 5 Food POINTS values total used 26
Well I am feeling much better today about myself then I did at the begining of the week. I stayed within my Dailey points & went to the gym yesterday. I must say taking a week off has gotten me out of shape. I was struggling to do my 50 minutes on the elliptical. The first 15 minutes was pure hell. I said to my self I have to do at least 30 minutes & if I still want to quit at that time then I will. However after the 30 minutes I was like only 15 more (plus 5 min cool down) So I stuck it out. I even did a little bit of weights after. I think I will start posting my food & exercise for the day to try to keep my accountable so here it is for yesterday. Day 1 on program food/exercise
Why do I do so well for a period of time then fall off the wagon? I can do great for a week or two, exercise every day not give in to temptations, then out of the blue it all goes in the shiter. I think I have to set a goal. I usually do good if I am working towards something. Back in August I was getting ready for a friends wedding & I did great for 3 weeks. A couple weeks ago I was getting ready for the race & I did great, then I took 2 days off from exercise & have not been able to get back. I have also been eating everything in sight. I am going to set a goal to exercise 6 days a week & control my eating until Christmas. I will then set a new goal after Christmas. I know it will be hard to control my eating/drinking with all the parties coming up but I am going to do it.
Well I did not have the best weekend food wise. I have not exercised since the race on Thursday. I have been eating all kinds of bad food & junk since Friday. I did really well on Thursday with Thanksgiving until desert. I did not do to bad. I had a small piece of pumpkin pie, Pumpkin cheesecake & apple crisp. This weekend we went to NY city to see the Radio City Rocketts. It was a great time & I did get some exercise with all the walking but the walking did not even come close to working off all the food I ate. Today is a new day & I am re committing. I will exercise 5-6 days a week until Christmas. I will try to eat healthy but I will not deprive myself of everything good. I found if I don't have a little of what I really want I end up caving & eating a lot of it.
I am so extreamly proud of my self. I just finished the Road race (5 miles) in 57 minutes. I wanted to finish in less then an hour & I did. I have been training since around August. Next year I will aim for 45 minutes. I ran most of the race I walked for about 12 min out of the 57. I kind of got terry eyed when I saw the finish line & realized I accomplished what I set out to do. I was running for my father. He was a runner & passed away 4 years ago this November. I thought of him as I was coming upon the finish line. I think he was pushing me to go.
I am so excited, I was able to run for 3 miles in a row with out stopping. That was 35 min in a row. That is a first for me. I could not run for more then 2 min when I first started. I am doing the Manchester Road Race tomorrow which is 5 miles. My plan is to finish within an hour. I was a bit nervous that I would not be able to run but after running the 3 miles I think I can do it. Wait I know I can do it.
I have a big NSV (non scale victory). Yesterday I was having a great on program day, then all of a sudden my mind started playing with me. I got the idea in my head to skip the gym & to go home & eat. I was hungry all day for some reason & my body was really sore from all the exercise I have been doing. I kept talking my self out of going to the gym. Then I said let me read some blogs. I read a blog called The Anti-Jared ( http://theantijared.blogspot.com/) & I got so inspired. Right then & there I said no I will not go home & eat in front of the TV. I will go to the gym. So thank you to The Anti-Jared for keeping me on track yesterday.
Well I made it thru the weekend without doing to much damage. I was able to go out on Saturday for 2 meals & only go over my daily points by a few. I went to a baby shower where they had the most amazing looking deserts (Julie is such the baker). I ended up having only 1 chocolate covered strawberry ( 1 point). Then I went to a girls night out with pizza & beer. I stuck to my plan, I had 2 pieces of pizza ( that is good for me, I love pizza) & 2 Bud Lights.
On Sunday I went to the gym bright & early at 7AM. I had a plan to do at least 4.5 miles on the treadmill. I actually ended up doing 5 miles. I did the 5 miles in 1 hour & 2 min so I am hoping to be able to complete the run on Thursday in 1 hour or less. I am sore today. I have gone 6 days in a row with exercising & I am feeling it.
This morning I went to a 7:30am Boot Camp class. It was tuff but I hung in. I ended up burning 400 calories.
Tonight I am going to have to try & stick to my healthy eating. It might be hard. I have baby shower this afternoon & then tonight I am going out for a girls night. I have a plan to only have a max of 3 drinks. I will work them into my points. Tomorrow I am going to do the treadmill for at least 4 miles so I can not drink to much tonight.
Well I am not so proud of my dinner choice last night. We went to a Uconn women's basketball game & I went with a plan. We were going to eat at this restaurant so I went on line & picked out a dinner that would be within my points. We get there & the wait is 45 min. We did not have time to wait so we ate at the game. I must say I did make a better choice then I would have in the past. Instead of having a nice big juicy burger I went with a chicken Philly. I know the cheese was not a good choice ( but I love my cheese) & I defiantly should not have eaten the chips or the few fries off Chris's plate. On the bright side I did not get an appetizer, dessert or beer. I think the eating healthy thing is going to take some time to get use to. I am good at home (most of the time) it is when I go out to eat that I cave.
Today is starting out to be a good day. I had to get up at 4:45 am to get in my exercise because we are going to a Uconn game after work. I was planning on doing my 5 min warm up the run for 5 min, walk for 3 run for 8 & repeat. However I got to running & after the 5 min I was like I can keep going. I was shocked I was able to run for 25 min in a row without stopping. That is a first for me. I think I will be able to do my 5 mile race next Thursday without dying.
Last night I went to a class at the gym, It was called Step & Sculpt. I thought it would be weights & some step aerobics. Not it was all weights & just squats off the step. I must have done 5 zillion squats & my legs are sore today. All in all I kind of liked the class & will most likely go again.
On another happy note I filled my gas tank today for under $20, $19.75 to be exact. Woo Hoo!
So today will be the first official day of my new life style. I am going cold turkey with the sweets. I packed my breakfast (Steel Cut Oats) & my lunch (Salad with Soup). I also have a bunch of fruit for snacks. Yesterday I ended up finishing out the day way better then it started. I was tempted to have some ice cream last night but I did not. I did make it to the gym, however I went to put on my sneakers & found out I had 2 different sneakers. I could handle wearing 2 different sneakers that would be a bit embarrassing but I would do it, the only problem they were 2 sneakers for the same foot. Now that did not work so I ended up working out in my shoes I wore to work, Good thing I did not wear heels. I got in a good workout, I did 50 min on the elliptical & I went up to a resistance level of 15 for a few minutes. Then I did a few chest exercises.
I have done nothing but eat bad for about a week now. I don't know how I expect the weight to come off if I keep eating like this & not exercising. Today I had a plan I packed my breakfast & lunch for work, however once I got here I did not want it. Instead I got Subway for lunch which was not so bad. I got a turkey on a roll up, but I also got chips & a Twix. Not so good. I am going to the gym tonight. I think my problem is once I eat something bad ( such as candy & cookies) I just can not stop, & this goes on for days. I am going to stay away from cookies/candy & try to eat a lot of fruits & vegetables for a week & see if that helps. I am also going to go to the gym everyday this week.
I have been on Weight Watchers for almost 3 years. I started off great I lost 60 pounds. Now I find myself slacking & losing then gaining the same 20 pounds over & over. I have had a weight problem all my life. I am going to lose the last 50 pounds this time. I will not stop till it is dropped.